What Am I Even Doing?

I hear this year has been hard on a lot of people. Life changes, breaking paradigms, closing cycles. I, for instance, decided to take a shot in life. I always felt out of place in the city I grew up in. It was like I did not belong there, like I could not get myself to agree with the way people choose to conduct themselves. It seemed to come from a place of vanity. It just repelled me. It felt like there was nothing for me there, like the place could not offer me what I need in order to keep growing. My girlfriend of almost six years decided to break up with me. I was not feeling comfortable with the office job I had. I just had a strong feeling that I had to get out of there immediately.

So I got rid of everything. I sold what I didn't need. I packed up what I could use. I took some clothes and left. No plan. No goals. No expectations.

My motivation at this point was very unclear, very uncertain. Sometimes I question myself if I took the right decision. I have been getting all these signals pointing me in all directions. But paying close attention to them, I get three main messages: Let go of what was, that is no longer me; Trust the process, nothing happens overnight, and there is a greater purpose for things; Trust myself, I have every skill and value I could need to keep moving on. In other words, have faith in the Universe. Or God. Or whatever This is called. This greater force that pushed me out of my country and brought me to a new one. This greater force that has kept me safe. This greater force that has helped me keep cool, calm, and collected, even when I am so far away from everything and everyone I knew. After all, I have always had every need satisfied, I have always had safety, and I have always had an unbelievably loving family I have been growing closer to in spite of all the miles and two national border lines that separate us. I have been blessed. And I am thankful for all of that. I am also thankful for having the courage and the resources to be pulling this off. So, if this helps anybody to move on with their lives, to pursue bigger dreams, just know you can make it. Set your intention and trust the process. Let me know how that works for you as I definitely will be writing more about how my story develops. Some of the signs I have received said I am following the correct path and that I should let my thoughts out. So here it is.My best wishes to all!