Truth About...

Hello,

You don’t know me... and by the time I’m finishing typing this, you may know a little more about me, but you will never know the real me. I don’t even know the real me... how could you?

It’s currently 3:56 AM, and yet another night has gone by where I am tossing, turning, and unable to fall asleep. I like to write, the fact that this ad for this website popped up on my Instagram feed as I was scrolling was kind a fun idea. I’m rolling with it. Back to it—tossing and turning that is. You see my day started out before I had even woke up this morning, with a gosh awful dream that—I won’t mention—but know it ended with death and myself. To say the least, my whole day was filled with unshakeable horrible thoughts. And it just dragged on. It was like thing after thing happened and even when I went to the gym I couldn’t be fully there... I was so beyond distracted.

I believe in the Law of Attraction and practicing affirmations and all of that. Heck, I even tried meditation around 12:30 when I couldn’t fall asleep, and it felt nice! But of course not enough to work... I think most people have days like today; you know, maybe the weather’s got you down or something happened to someone you love. I believe everyone experiences feelings like this at some point, which goes with the picture I added with this post. You know? You have to have bad days to be able to appreciate the good ones... I am obviously trying so hard to sound slightly positive to anyone who is reading this. Ha ha.

Law of Attraction: The idea that you attract the thoughts you keep. Positive thoughts bring positive experiences, negative thoughts bring negative experiences. This being said, you can’t avoid negative thoughts, but you can try damn hard to. For me it’s not so easy, I have what you call “loud emotions” so, that’s why I’m in a rut here. I’m writing this for anyone who can relate. You so badly want to be positive all day every day, for me I see the best in everyone, but myself. I try and be as nice as possible to everyone, even if people are rude to me because it’s not worth it. But at the end of the day, I feel so alone, and I’m trying new things to help (example meditation, maybe some yoga) but I still fall asleep late at night, wake up later, feel exhausted... when all I want is the life of an influencer. Maybe that just seemed like I switched up or something, but you know!! To inspire people on a daily basis and help people become the best version of themselves and just... help. Help help help as much as I can, just slightly brighten anyone’s day. I got way off topic but that’s my truth. I have big dreams/goals for myself, but I am a mess at the moment and I know influencers don’t have the time to be a mess... I just want to tell myself 24/7 life’s too short to be a mess, Brit, but some days that’s hard to do. Tomorrow will be better. If you’re in the same boat, just know there’s always tomorrow. A fresh start. And nothing bad lasts forever; unfortunately nothing does, but let’s just take it one day at a time, yeah?

More to come!

Xx

Brittany Nicole