I know there are some people out there in this world that go through a point in their lives when they lose themselves, which has more than likely made them second guess who they are, and their purpose as a measly little human being on this planet. I, for one, have gone through this, and as a matter of fact I’ve dealt with this my entire life. Since my childhood I’ve struggled with self-acceptance and always wanting to be liked by others, and because of this it caused me to desperately need approval from other people. This craving just grew every single day like a fast growing vine, and until I knew it my entire life was engulfed with this need for others to like me.
These constant thoughts just caused me to make an utter fool out of myself, and this need to want to fit in took a grasp on my life, which caused me to do things that I should have never done. This led me on to the world of hard drugs, going to raves, and drinking, which then led to depression and other mental issues. This horrible life that I was living destroyed me, because I always knew deep down that this wasn’t me. I wasn’t this person that I portrayed myself to be, but I had become so weak-minded, I couldn’t even make rational decisions for myself anymore.
I always knew deep down that there was something special about me that I tried so hard to push away for such a long time, and because of this I caused a vast amount of destruction in my life, which caused me to completely lose myself. I am filled with sorrow and regret for doing this to my life, but now I am on a journey to find myself again, and I have hope that I will. If you are struggling with self-acceptance, remember who you are, there’s is still beauty in you, and you will find it if you truly look.. There is always hope awaiting you if you really want it. We all have a twinkle inside of us that needs to be shown off to the world.
Happiness on the Other End
There is always a brighter side.
Although we may find a certain path that we are taking to be extremely bumpy just know this, if your heart truly tells you to follow it, follow it. Any road to glory and peace is never going to be easy in any manner what so ever. All you have to do is make the decision whether you are willing to take that bumpy road or not.
Most people who finally reach their dreams in life do not get there easily, it takes sacrifice and many life lessons to get there, if you are stuck in life and don’t understand why so many hardships have been coming your way, have you ever thought that maybe you have just decided to take that bumpy path that is going to lead you to your dreams?
Once you get to the end of that difficult road all the pain will have been worth it, every single tear that you shed and every sacrifice that you went through got you to where you finally wanted to be. I am on that journey right now and I all I can say is that it’s not easy whatsoever, but if you keep on fighting you will see progress and you will find your true purpose. Keep your eye on the prize, and never forget what is waiting for you on the other side of all that pain that you may be going through.
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