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My life is quite strange.

By LilithVPublished 5 years ago 3 min read
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I have been dreaming for almost a year, almost every single night. Always strange dreams that I cannot seem to remember until someone says or asks something, and then I seem to immediately remember. Hell, I am not even sure I should remember them.

My psychic abilities and my ability to manifest has rapidly accelerated in my work, fast. Life hasn't slowed down for us, since about August 2018... my husband and I are finally learning to adjust.

We became used to having time to waste. Now we have to make time to breathe. While I am thankful to be busy and to have this amazing life, I stand back sometimes and all I can think is WTF? Not WTF in a bad way or anything... it is just strange.

My husband and I have had these moments all our lives, even before we met. Moments I thought no one would ever believe what the hell is going on. Amazing, breathtaking, terrifying, exciting, insane moments. Moments where I feel, see, hear, breathe, and taste unimaginable things. However, now everyone around us is starting to see it all, too—even the things that happen to us.

While I always desired for people to believe what I told them or to see what I have seen, it is still a little creepy. It still startles me every time someone contacts me and has a question about what is going on here.

I know I should not be afraid of people or things that have happened in my past, I still have a tiny fear. I have a fear of someone tearing down my life and everything I have worked so hard to achieve. I have a fear of someone trying to split up my husband and I. (Side note: It's an illogical fear. After almost four years, I know I have nothing to worry about and my husband makes sure I know that. It's PTSD.)

I have to re-learn to live fearlessly.

Four of my family members came to visit for our official wedding in October 2018. While they were here for a week, I overcame seven fears, and very real fears and phobias: Fear of heights, fear of haunted houses (the Halloween ones that are man-made, not real hauntings LOL), fear of seeing my family again, fear of failure (our wedding did not go as planned, at all), a fear of not being able to make quick decisions, a fear of doctors, and a fear of federal buildings. While I am still cautious, I do know I can handle these things now. It was great when they were here. All of them told me how proud they were of me (I waited my whole life for that LOL). How much they loved my spouse and our apartment. All good things.

I thought.

I didn't realize that my family seeing me thriving... in a happy marriage, with a career, with a home, safe... would push them away. It seems now there is less contact. Less I love you. I think it may have somehow hurt them to realize I am finally all grown up and thriving. Thinking I don't need them. Maybe it hurts them to talk to me because they now truly know I can't go visit or move back to Alabama.

Honestly, when they left, it kinda left me with a feeling of "what do I do now?" It had been strange to bring, what I considered my past, into my present. It was like two worlds colliding. I'm still not sure I have processed all of it yet.

At the beginning of November 2018, we had some of my old friends from Alabama contact us. I had been having dreams about these people for a few months, so I kinda knew it was coming. I couldn't, however, have any clue how everything would go. Turns out, they wanted to apologize and make amends. Now we could not ask for better friends. I am still processing this, too.

I am finally starting to realize that I can have all of my dreams come true without anything going wrong.

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About the Creator

LilithV

I am happily married to my very best friend. My passions are healing, occult, history, religion, theology, and psychology. I write all from personal life experiences and all my writings are non-fiction.

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