Oh Look a Squirrel

I wasn’t going to write anything tonight or for the next few, days but I have some thoughts I need to get down. I’m not one for New Years. I don’t need a party or a bar or a club, in fact I’ll probably be asleep by 10 PM tonight, which is my norm. However, I understand that New Years night and day are important for many.

To me, I don’t need the turning of a calendar to make a change. Every day gives you the ability to make a change in yourself or your life. But if you’re someone that needs that target date of January 1 as your leaping off point, then I support you. Everyone is different, we all have different motivations, and if you’re looking to make a positive impact on your life, then I support you.

With all that being said, I can’t help but feel a bit hypocritical because as these final few days of 2018 have come and gone, I’ve been internally very reflective. I won’t go into the pomp and circumstance of all that I’ve done, Hell most of you have read about it and with all the work that I have done, I have plenty more to do. That’s not what this piece is about.

What it is about is another change that I do need to make. I just happened to realize this on December 31. What I realized is that I’m easily distracted.

I’m not talking about “oh look a squirrel” distracted. I’m talking about allowing myself to “dwell” on the things that I don’t have in my life rather than be appreciative of what I do have. Not only that, but it takes my focus off of goals and plans that I have for myself in the coming days.

These plans are known by few if any, but what I did do, which is something I’ve never done. I wrote them down. That’s how serious I am about them. I finally feel that I am in a place where I can stop thinking or dreaming of certain things. I am ready to stop being afraid of what if it doesn’t go well. I am ready to find out what will happen when they do go well.

These dreams won’t come to fruition without my time, attention, work, and focus. Just like anything I’ve accomplished thus far. If there is anything that I learned this past year, it is that whatever I want to do, i can accomplish, with work, attention, and focus. Thomas Jefferson has a famous quote: “I am a great believer in luck, and I find the harder I work, the more I have of it." Ive learned he’s right.

I think it’s human nature to focus on what’s missing. All of the things that we may not have. All of the things that aren’t going as planned. But why dwell on those things? What are they doing for you? All they are doing is taking your energy away from something else that may help you achieve you getting those things that you desire.

It’s now my intention to recognize my thoughts. To realize that I’m dwelling on things outside of my control. And when I do have them, to focus harder on the list that I wrote down, to remember what I’m working towards, and to take the steps that I need to so that I can achieve them.

With all that being said. I wish you all a very happy, healthy, and safe new year. May this be the year that you take your steps towards the goals that you want to achieve. I also want to thank you all for reading my posts. I appreciate all of the feedback and encouragement to keep doing something I’ve been passionate about since I was 15 years old! Cheers!