Cameron Scott

Sometimes we are called to step past our biggest FEARS! I have always been a very private person, I have never sought out fanfare, or wished to be seen in an audience. I am a pretty shy and quiet person for the most part. Sure I have made some noise in my life, especially when I was in the throws of my drug and alcohol addictions over a decade ago. I did and said some things that I really wish I could unsay and undo. But, I decided in April of 2009 to choose life and sobriety over death and alcohol and have been sober ever since. My early years in sobriety were just spent trying to figure out what life looked like with out drugs and alcohol. I spent a lot of time by myself just searching for "who I really was" at that point in my life.

I soon discovered Yoga, no one in my previous spheres in life had ever said a thing to me about Yoga and its amazing benefits, and if they did, I definitely didn't hear them. I began Yoga as a means to fix a back that was constantly in pain and spasming. It soon became a life practice that has been as transformational in my life as Sobriety. Several years into my Yoga practice I began to compete against myself in my poses, and with those around me, I began to feel unsettled. So, I knew I had to go deeper in the practice, and hired a world renowned meditation teacher that I worked with on a one on basis and began to sit in silence for longer and longer periods of time. The sand began to settle, the thoughts became softer, and I didn't chase them as much. Traumas from early childhood development began to come up and I began to see my story, the parts of my life that I had thought that I had forgotten or blacked-out. I began to connect dots and things in my life began to really take shape as to the "whys" and "hows" I had gotten so fucked up in my life.

As my meditation and yoga practice began to take root in my life, I was asked to go to a "breath work class." This was one of the most profound experiences in my life. It uncorked years of stuffed and denied traumas in a single hour. I came out of the breath work class with a new determined sense of " I got more work to do and I will do it!" attitude. I did this special form of Breath work taught by JP CRIMI www.breathewithjp.com for 90 days straight, and it has been the biggest change factor in my life out side of sobriety. I was invited to be a student at his first teacher training event in Los Angeles, and am now a certified transformational breath work coach and I teach classes on a weekly basis in Bend, Oregon. I have watched so many people come in to our class room with a dull, lifeless like quality only to watch them do the breathing exercises, and leave glowing and alive with a sense of love and gratitude that continues to amaze me every time I witness it.

Life can be overwhelming for all of us, we all carry pain and suffering, and old, unresolved traumas that our hearts and souls want us to deal with, so we can grow and be in a state of love and gratitude. I have heard this saying many times and I believe it to be 100 percent true "you can not heal what you can not feel." I believe that we have to be willing to feel what we need to heal. We have to feel our pain in order to step out of the suffering; this isn't to say that we have to relive it, but we do have to be willing to feel it and let the feeing pass through us, so we can let it go and step into a state of love and gratitude.

We are all meant to thrive in this world, we were all brought here to be our best selves and shine with joy and happiness. I know from experience that there are so many things going on in our lives that make us believe that happiness is the next shiny thing,;new car, bigger paycheck, bigger biceps, flatter six-pack stomach, but that simply is not true. When we live in this world we are always chasing happiness, and it is always just out of reach.

To all of you that read this post and watch this video, I chased happiness for so long and kept coming up short, that I attempted suicide. Thank God it didn't work! After that experience I decided that in order for me to find that happiness I was looking for, even though I didn't know what it felt like, that I had to make some choices about me and my life. And each one of those choices required and demanded action and perseverance and commitment. I began to feel moments of happiness, then days, then weeks. This journey of repairing ourselves is not without its dark and heavy days. Old energies move out of your body, and new energies move in, new thoughts and actions take a long time to become second nature after years and years of living with the old thought patterns and action traits that keep us stuck in a state of suffering. But I promise you all, if you will just take your life seriously, and see that it is the only one that you get to live, and put your hand on your heart and close your eyes, and just take some really deep expansive inhales and exhales you will "feel" what your next answer is to improve the quality of your life. All of the answers we seek in life are within us always. We just have to feel them to hear them!

If you are on the journey of self discovery, I applaud you! I am so happy for you and I know that if you just trust that it will all be ok and you will find that which you are seeking and do the work, you will find love and gratitude for all the things in your life and that includes the tough times and that bad things that have happened as they have all shaped you in to the amazing beautiful person that you are today! So, to wrap up my first VOCAL post, STEP PAST WHAT YOU FEAR, AND WATCH YOUR LIFE CHANGE IN WAYS YOU COULD NEVER HAVE DREAMED OF!