Best Friend or Worst Enemy?

Do you believe in the 5-second rule? Grab a pen and paper to answer the last question, please.

Before I begin, I have written a story/workbook/journal I would like to publish to help humanity in all circles of life, but I'm just awaiting funds and feedback for publishing. I would like to say many thanks in advance for giving me the opportunity of sounding my words, as this is one of many ongoing projects of mine that I am extremely passionate about; to help my children, to help my children's children, and generations to come is just one of the factors to me pursuing my passions.

I too have had to work hard with pure dedication to get to where I am today, now it is my dream to help people, to make you aware that your very own actions affect yourself and the whole world around you. My work covers a range of topics, but written in simple terms, as I too have been in that horrific place. I am fully aware that at this stage, concentration and self-belief is not your best friend; in-fact your mind at this stage is your very own worst enemy if you are not mentally sound. What I am hoping to do within this workbook is, over some time, show you that you are worth so much more than this life you are giving yourself, to open your eyes to what can be. To be brave, taking small steps little by little, get to the bottom of that place you are trying to avoid to enable you to stop needing what you currently do which, is clearly absolutely no good for you.

Why am I writing this? Maybe in hope that you will see as I do one day. After an extreme amount of abnormal hell, I came to realize that there are many living as I once did. Thirty-six years I lived on this universe wasting every single day, the same thought processes, the same hurt, the loss, the lost loves and never truly knowing myself. To go through life entering relationships that were just mentally and physically wrong, weirdly thinking it was my job to love people that just really neglected me from a young age. To simply never have real clarity because I for one wasn’t raised with these tools. It wasn't the fact that I had a bad childhood, but most defiantly my lack of self-love and self-worth stemmed from there. Many disrupted moments happened from a young age and this does affect you. To never really have self-love means you lack self-respect, in turn, we end up doing some of the most bizarre things, the void that is always within you that stops your self-belief, this, in turn, affects you when it comes to you reaching your goals and most defiantly stops you from being the absolute best self that you can be.

Did you know your best self is in fact your happiest self?

Living the same life over and over... Is that really what you want from life?

You are the only problem and as tough as it is to hear you are also your only solution from this life you are struggling to live, we all suffer and can feel despair so bad so be the one who refuses to lay down when most would. Prove your worth not for the ones that do you wrong but to go to where you deserve to go.

Where is your happiest self wanting to go?

There is an African proverb that reads, "When there is no enemy within- the enemy outside can do you no harm." When you refuse to allow doubts in your mind to rule you, you will be less likely to be clouded, as only you can decide to choose the decision of happiness that you truly want without the judgment of Bob or Jeff down the road. To use pain as a base of where you will no longer allow for yourself to go. If you do this and keep doing it, you will grow daily, so let us plant your seeds you beautiful flower.

Let your struggles be a gift to your new reality by not repeating them.

So what do you not want to repeat?

Wishing you all the best.