Kat Fern
Bio
Im a quiet girl with a lot to say.
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The Girl in the Shadows
They all know me but they don’t know me personally. They say I’m nice, sweet, kind, caring, thoughtful and trustworthy. They don’t know me or how I really am. What they don’t know is that I just want a friend, someone I can count on, someone to love other than my family. I want someone to be there for me, and most of all I want someone to care. Everyone has their own battles but not everyone can fight them alone, even though they seem stronger than you are. I know that because the people who I think are strong come to me for advice. When I need advice who do I turn too? Where can I go? Yes I am thankful for the friends and family I have around me. I am always grateful for the things I have. Deep down I know I can have more, but when will it be my turn? I try to be supportive of everyone but truthfully it has done nothing but send me back to square one. Back to the place I was excited to leave. When I turn bitter, I see everyone excelling. When I try to be supportive I still see people excelling. When will it be my turn? When can I finally see some progress in my my life? That’s all I want. I want to work towards my happiness but my happiness comes from seeing people happy which I enjoy. I don’t mind helping people. I enjoy people feeling better knowing that I have helped them. At the end of the day, I am drained and lost in a world where I know I can be doing big things but something is holding me back. I feel like I've ended up with people that made me feel alone because they only call me when they need me. I learned how to plan my life around what I really want in life, and that doesn't include many people. It's ok. I've learned to deal with loneliness by doing things I like by myself.
By Kat Fern6 years ago in Motivation