JC .
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doing a bit of soul searching. enjoy.
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A Mile in My Armor
I have spent the last few years of my life afraid of something undefinable and because of my irrational fear, I have restrained myself from the experiences that are necessary in order to for me grow as a person. It took a long time for me to see that there are some things that we simply can not learn by just watching others or through listening to stories, we must experience them ourselves and to put what I've been going through into better terms, I feel as if I’ve been fighting a never ending battle and regardless of how brutally I fight and how long my stamina holds me up for, I always end the day feeling as though I lost and missed out on everything that I was supposed to be experiencing. I understand that we all have to fight our own battles and that some are worse than others, but mine has gotten to the point where the armor that I force myself to strap on every day is breaking my back and I am just tired and ready to rid myself of all of the negativity that wraps itself around me. I spent a lot of time trying to point my finger at something or someone to blame but that just ends up creating an unwanted batch of bitterness inside of me that brews and steeps until it comes out; a hot cup of misery with a side of frustration served fresh for anyone who happens to catch me on that particular day. At times I find myself struggling to be a part of the world because I have yet to learn my place here and it's confusing because the fear that I have for that undefinable something always holds me back from discovering the parts of me that I have to discover.
By JC .6 years ago in Motivation